October is recognized as Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Month, and the 15th was the Wave of Light event. This was where people lit candles on their front porches at 7pm in memory and support for those infants lost during pregnancy. We lit a candle for Noah and we want to thank everyone else who lit one for him as well. We really appreciate the support. It has almost been 3 months since losing him, and while we are making it, we still have times when it is really difficult. Thank god for friends and family who help us through it. We fight against the bitterness and jealousy every day. We also would liek to apologize to those who would have loved to have been part of this event but we did a bad job of getting the word out as we found out about it the day before. Maybe next year we can make the event brighter!

It seems we keep meeting more people who this has also happened to. It is a club we never wanted to be in, and wish noone else had to become a part of.

Over the weekend we went to a small outdoor market. We saw two different Noah’s Ark items that would have been nice to have. It was so hard not to buy them, knowing we had no use for them anymore. But as I think about it, why can’t we still collect Noah’s Ark stuff. People collect things for no reason at all, and we have a good reason. Maybe if Noah ever gets a sibling they may like to have all of the stuff to memorialize their lost brother. Yes. I have decided in fact I will still collect Noah’s Ark stuff.